Thoughts to My Brother Part-I ... "it"

As I write these thoughts I am listening to Debussy’s Claire de lune calming and enchanting melody being played on the piano.

And me … I too am doing well ... but still on the same old journey I have been on for a while … and now after all this time ready to say enough … there is nothing more I need to learn from this journey again  … time to move on. And I will soon leave the dust of the old warn out path behind … and begin a new journey on a fresh path to a yet-to-be-determined destination.

A phone call yesterday from my brother was a catalyst that allowed me to say out loud and observe what I refer to as “it” … some of my deep inner feelings that have not gotten fresh air for a long time … and for some it was the first time … that have been locked up inside me.

Please know that I am never sure of what the “it” of the moment is until I take the opportunity to let these feelings free to surface and observe. Talking with my brother was such an opportunity for me and so without thought took advantage of it.

For most of my life I have stuffed lots of “it” inside of me over and over again … and only recently have been willing to acknowledge and observe “it” with a purpose … to identify “it” and then as needed create an action to support the process of changing or getting rid of “it”.  I recognize that only by observing and then choosing an action is there a possibility for change.

Making such observations authentically is important to me so that I can take a meaningful look at those chunks of my “program code” that has been running my life … and then determine how and if the program code needs to be reworked or debugged … or if this program code happens to be so tangled up that it has become what I call throw-away-code … which means I must replace the old program code and write new program code as I choose it to be.

 And then I get to see the results of my actions … sometimes immediate and sometimes over time … sometimes with desired results and sometimes not. And I also recognize the importance to regularly take the opportunity to observe myself and how I am assessing the world around me … so that I can continually stay grounded and evolve into the person I choose to be.

For me, I know I will continue to evolve until my last day.

(more to follow -  Part-II "Transparencies")